After the holiday

Ok, If I may, Thanksgiving was so great!  It appears that a good time was had by all.  I tried to wrangle all the crazies for a photo, but there is always a jacknut in the crowd, Dad?  

 Ok, so Karl is the jacknut, Zachs laughing and Dad apparently has something interesting down by his feet?  Really?

 Mom and I,  I love this picture!

 Even Jake was able to get a big bowl full of turkey and trimmings, he is so spoiled!

 Here is one from Zachs Birthday, usually celebrated on Thanksgiving but we were able to celebrate on the 20th (actual day this year.) The photo on the cake was taken this fall when we went out on a charter for some fishing, great day.

Zach turns 12, man how the years fly by!

So we had a great holiday with the family, we couldn't have asked for more.  Special thanks to Karl and Carrie for the long journey once again made safely home. 
And to Mom, my support system, my friend.  I don't know where I would be right now without her and Dad.  I am so thankful for all they do for me and Zach !  Love you both! 

Yay Turkey day!

So the big eat fest begins in less than 36 hours, commence cooking!  I am happy to say that we will be serving here at the new homestead!  I am welcoming the family along with our special guest from KY, Wanda.  
The traditional feast of course, but I am skimping on the pies this year were down to two and not a Pumpkin in site.  I know, blasphemy right?  But no one will eat the damn thing?  Its almost like the cranberries.  After they have been so carefully removed from the "mold" and arranged on a serving dish "schhhhhoopm, plop"  No one eats them?  There will be one small carving off the mold and that's all?     So I voted off the Pumpkin in favor of a deep dish Apple pie with french vanilla ice cream and a peanut butter pie.  Ill let ya know how that goes over. 
I am so looking forward to spending time with the family.  I am fortunate to have room at the house for Karl , Carrie and Wanda so they are bunking in with us for a night, that should be fun.   I will do my best to keep Jake at bay so they can try and get some sleep, but its a crap shoot. 

I have much to be thankful for this year so I wont take one minute of this time for granted.
I wish you all a safe and Happy Thanksgiving! 

Fall is here

I sat outside on the deck and watched the leaves from the Ash tree falling, the maple has yet to even turn.  I thought great, so one will finish and the other will start...yay.
I guess what they say about not seeing the forest thru the trees is true.  I cant believe how truly blessed I am, a beautiful home, Zach and Jake, my family.  I am so lucky to have all this thru this transition with my marriage. 

I think that this path I am choosing now is surely the path less traveled, its confusing and rather difficult.  I know in my heart that it is what I want and what I believe is best for Zach and I.   I feel guilty that the past 3 weeks as we are truly happy, but is that really wrong?   We only get one shot here and to be unhappy seems a waste of what God has presented to me.  I pray every night for strength to get thru this and I believe that he is answering my prayers.  I am happy and I am getting back to me again, boy did I miss me!

Starting a new chapter

So the move to the new house went well and all settled in to our new home.  Jake came home from bootcamp and there are noticeable changes which is good.  He still needs supervision, this morning he stole a stick of butter from the counter and consumed it wrapper and all.  Yay!  We did however have an excellent training session with Jeff, hes amazing. 
There are more changes that are unfolding, my marriage is done but I believe it to be for the best.  I am looking forward to spending time with my boys and working on myself.  I could use a "tune up" and get in shape for the many wonderful things to come for my special little family.  
I am fortunate, I have a wonderful support system, a loving family and Jake, life is only getting better!

My babies are gone.......

Ok, so heres todays drama.  Its 11:17, I cant sleep as both my babies are gone.  Zach is with Gobba, not out of the ordinary as he has been fortunate to spend alot of the summer with her.  But Jake went to bootcamp, I dropped him at 6:30 tonight with the trainer he will be there for 2 weeks!   I am so sad!  What if he thinks I dont love him anymore and left him at "the pound?"   I had to blog this and Frank thinks I am now totally nuts.  I said what if the other dogs pick on him? Hes just a baby?  And he like his air conditioning and the kennel is hot?  
Perhaps I am over thinking this?

So this blog thing.

I have seen it more and more recently and really, I can ramble with the best of them.  I figure its like that diary I had when I was a child, this one with the lock and key?   I think all young girls had them and wrote down all their thoughts and wishes.  So know we get a virtual diary?  My how things have changed.
I find as I get older I say alot, "remember that time..."   I think time is marching way to fast and I cant for the life of me, get it to slow the heck down.  Zach will be turning 12 this fall, 12?  Seriously I cant tell you how fast its gone?  I remember  ( see told you so!)  being pregnant and thinking that I had all the time in the world to get ready for him.   I should have known that when that 9 months flew by I was on a slippery slope.
Well I guess time is not stopping for me, so I think this is a good start.  I am going to go outside with Zach and Jake and spend quality time.  Thats what it is all about.